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Kirsty reflects on becoming a mum for the first time and how it has changed her life.

‘I became a first time mum one year ago. Tuesday 21st April 2009 will forever be the best day of my life and also the most terrifying. I thought my career working within Children's Services would have prepared me for motherhood. I knew how to get babies to sleep, how to feed them, play with them and I'd certainly changed enough nappies to give me plenty of practice. But when they held up my brand new son, Hudson, a slight fear went through me. Now what?

‘Weighing in at 10lbs 2oz Hudson was no light weight. I would sit in the breastfeeding room at the hospital with all the other new mums holding their tiny babies. Mine looked like a three-month-old next to theirs. Having had a caesarean, I was unable to get out of bed for 24 hours. After my partner had left the hospital and our families had gone home I tried to peer over the side of my bed to get a good look at my baby boy. The plastic tub on wheels where he was peacefully sleeping was just too far for me to see. I reached for my mobile phone, held it over the cot and took a photo of him. I looked at that photo for a long time wondering if there was some mistake. For a newborn he was just beautiful. Perfect.

‘On the first anniversary of his birth, I am filled with reflection and emotion. Where have the last 12 months gone? Have I taken in all the milestones he has achieved in this time or was it all in a sleepless blur? I am still amazed by him every day. He makes me smile and laugh out loud. I have been wondering when this feeling leaves you as a parent, but I’ve realised, it's here to stay. So happy first birthday Hudson. You changed my world.’

  • Last updated or reviewed 22-06-2010
  • Acknowledgements

    This mother's story is one of the winning entries in our Mother's Day competition 2010.